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October, crisp, misty, golden October, when the light is sweet and heavy.

The truth is I’ve never fooled anyone. I’ve let people fool themselves. They didn’t bother to find out who and what I was. Instead, they would invent a character for me. I wouldn’t argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn’t. When they found this out, they would blame me for disillusioning them and fooling them.

Do you think the universe fights for souls to be together?
Some things are too strange and strong to be coincidences.

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5 Facts Related to Your Feelings

onlinecounsellingcollege:

1. You are not your feelings.
2. Feelings are unreliable and don’t always tell the truth.
3. Feelings are often very fickle; they can change throughout the day.
4. Don’t let your feelings rule your choices, your decisions, or your day.
5. Changing mindsets and perspective often changes how we feel.

(via oaeo)

How to: Win the Heart of an Aquarius Woman

bearingwater:

This air sign has a mind as open as the sky. She is known for being cool, remote even. Her mind is often set to “Roam,” where she comes and goes, bringing back the unexpected.
She has a social ease, and makes acquaintances that last. Time is relative to the Aquarius woman, so it matters not if you’ve known her a day or a lifetime. Her contact list is full, with an eclectic mix of characters. Known to look beyond labels, she dates across the age, race and culture spectrum. She likes to be friends first, and stay that way, no matter what.
Her strength of individuality shines through in any conversation. She prides herself on being a progressive thinker. She’s the last to agree with anyone’s opinion, just to boost his or her ego. This sets her apart, as a true free-thinking woman, which can be intimidating to some.
She’ll be impressed if you know your own mind, and bring stimulating ideas to the table. Her thinking is often global, so if you’re up to speed on the latest sweeping trends, that helps. She loves a challenge, and can be a maddening debater. Some Aquarians are relentless with their focus on one issue, and can drive those around them crazy with it.
Be prepared for a heady time, where it seems things never drop down into the personal. If you’re someone who needs to feel someone out emotionally – like a water sign – she’s a tough one for you to trust. Earth signs may find it hard to imagine cuddling this alluring, but distant persona. In general, fire and other air signs do well with the Aquarius woman. But look for common ground, and remember that there’s more to your birth chart, and compatibility could be found elsewhere to balance things out.
The female Water Bearer considers herself a citizen of the world, with real or virtual friends from all over. She finds worldliness attractive, and it won’t hurt if you’re into gadgets n’ gizmos. If she’s not home, she’ll Skype you, so it helps if you’re already hooked up.
And yet, she doesn’t want to be a slave to technology, and is known to vanish, with phone turned off or Facebook profile disabled. The Aquarius woman values her time and abhors being locked into a routine, and if she finds it’s too much, she’ll cut the cords and try something new.
She’s unpredictable like that. Once you think you’ve got her deets, the line is disconnected. It’s her nature to stay free, and even unreachable, though she is often a person of high integrity. She’s aimed on the future, and is often preoccupied with ideas that are ahead-of-their-time. She casts a wide net, and gets absorbed in what others call fringy or taboo. She seeks novelty and experimentation and is at home at the cutting edge.
She’s attracted to what’s truly original about you, especially if it’s a strange bent. Others might roll their eyes, but she wants to hear your most bizarre musings. She’ll warm to you if you accept her own quirks and give her the space she needs to truly be free.
Be interesting. Wear something that has a wild story to go along with it, or makes you stand out. Go in without any pre-set judgements about what goes on in her head, despite how she looks on the outside. Show your own radical side, and celebrate the ways you flaunt convention. She admires those with a passion for a cause.

(Source: astrology.about.com, via bearingwater)

You’re just smelling for smoke
so you can follow the trail
back to a burning house,
so you can find the boy
who lost everything in the fire
to see if you can save him.

Or else–

find the boy
who lit the fire
in the first place,
to see if you
can change him.

my condolences to anyone who’s ever lost me
and to anyone who got lost in me
or to anyone who ever felt they took a loss with me.
my apologies.
for the misunderstanding or the lack thereof.
i’m sorry you missed the God in me.
and i’m sorry you missed the light.
i’m sorry you forgot the way i arose like the moon,
night after night.
with the burden to forgive
eager to feed you everything.
see.. i’m a holy woman.
i know what it’s like to give life to a being
without ever needing to press skin against one another.
i’ve practiced how to hold my tongue long enough,
i’m afraid i forgot to say goodbye.
i’m afraid you’re under the impression that i was made to please you.
i was under the impression, you understood me better.
the truth is,
i’m a super woman.
and somedays i’m an angry woman.
and somedays i’m a crazy woman.
for still waiting..
for still loving harder even if i’m aching.
for still trusting that I’m still worth the most.
for still searching
for someone to understand me better.

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I think the mistake that young women often make is thinking that every single boy that comes into our lives is supposed to “stay”. Whereas with boys, they’ve learned all their lives that everything is surrounded by them. they’ve learned that they’re supposed to be the center of attention. I think men believe so much in themselves, and have such big egos at such a young age, that they think, for example, that they can have intercourse with girls because “she’s cute” and that just be that. they don’t realize that these girls have feelings. Meanwhile, each girl is like, “my gosh, he’s cute, he’s really nice to me, he’s considerate.. sometimes. we’re going to commit to a relationship because we love one another.” She sees so much in him that he doesn’t even see in himself. he doesn’t realize that his friendliness is creating both, a bond and an attachment, in her mind. he doesn’t realize how serious this has become. We’ve allowed men to be disrespectful. We as a collective – moms, sisters, girlfriends, all of us. we’re all responsible. It’s an ongoing cycle of how we abuse each other. we abuse ourselves, we learn ourselves, we abuse others, they abuse themselves, they abuse us, and then again - we abuse each other. This is a vicious subconscious cycle. It continues to go on and on and on and on until you finally find those people or that person who understands that this is just who we are and accepts that. they accept their flaws. they accept yours. they accept all of you and all of themselves and eventually, you simultaneously end this cycle of abuse. and hopefully, you can help others too.